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Hi, I'm Jac. I'm really bad at these things because I never know what to write about myself. Some main things are just... I'm loud I complain I like to argue I'm optimistic I talk a lot, but I listen just as well. I watch too many movies, probably cause I'm lazy. I'm sarcastic, so I apologize in advance

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

So there's this guy..

So, I have this thing with this guy..
It's actually just a "thing" but we both know it could definitely develop into more.

Here's the deal. I talk to this guy every night. And I love it. Usually it's only 2-3 hours. But I don't care. The catch. He doesn't live near me.
I'd probably give anything to live near him.

At first I thought it was one of those "flings". Where you're high on the feeling for a few weeks, or months then it's over. It's true I've only known him for a few months, but it isn't a fling.
I'm at the point where
• Anything he says can make me smile
• I feel comfortable with telling him anything
• Anything and everything reminds me of him
• When I watch "romantic" movies, I want that with him.

I'm usually never a girly girl when it comes to these things. So it feels so weird. It almost feels like I'm doing something wrong. Sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating him too. I tend to tell him how I'm feeling and whats going on, in life or anything. He'll do the same for me.

He always does these, like seriously the simplest things that makes me smile like such a moron. It's like.. 90% of the time just him saying something, and I see as the most adorable thing ever.
I'm such a creep to be thinking about him a lot. An even weirder creep to admit that yes, I have dreamt about him. But I feel on top of the world for those 2 hours that we talk. Like nothing can bring me down of this high hill. But I don't want it to end either.

When I talk to him..
• I'm never mad
• I feel so high
• I have butterflies
• I want him to hold me and not let go
• I want to hear him talk forever
• I never want him to leave
• I want time to stand still
• I'm nervous, I shiver

I love him ♥

Monday, February 1, 2010

Christmas - 16/12/09

So. Christmas is one of my favorite holiday. Minus Halloween.
I really enjoy Christmas, just the holiday itself. I love the thought of Christmas.
During Christmas, my family all gets together. We have a huge boxing day pot luck, every year since I can remember. Each year it's been at my house. Now, each family has some sort of problem. It's obvious, no family is perfect. And no matter what my family gets together.
This year it's going to be a little different because my Grandpere died. So we're going to have an empty rocking chair as we watch stupid cartoon movies.

Another reason I love Christmas is the cheer. Serious. The songs just actually make me want to sing and dance. No joke. This weekend I'm actually dressing as an elf with a few friends and we're going out to sing and pass out candy canes to people we meet.

We're also collecting money for IWK. Which reminded me of a story I read in the paper at work. This girl, her name is Samantha and she lives in my province. She has a bone cancer. Her christmas wish is to go home for christmas. Though she can't do that, because she's dying. Her step dad is bringing her brothers and her things up to her hospital room, so she can have her Christmas.

This, I think, is the real meaning of Christmas. Those things.
Family. Friends. Joy.
Not santa, and christmas specials. Not getting gifts and shopping.
Or even those nasty boxing day sales.

Now I'm not that religious, but when I was growing up. Christmas was about Jesus. Not Santa.
Christmas is just an excuse for people to buy things now. Or an excuse for kids to get greedy.
Corporations use the day to say. "If you love your partner, by them this expensive item"
And dear LORD boxing day sales? It's the Canadian Black Friday! It's sickening... It's awful.

I told my mother I didn't want anything for Christmas this year. I just wanted to be home.
If I could ask for anything, for myself, I'd want to talk to a certain someone.
If I could ask for anything for everyone else... Instead of wasting your money on shit you don't need. Use your money for people who need it.

Each school has a food bank around Christmas. Use the money for extra cans to give to them. My High School has the Christmas Joy Project. Donate money for the students. There's also a shoebox Christmas program. My mom and I used to sponsor 2 kids. All we did was get simple things like hair brush, hair pins, toothbrush, mittens and hats? We put them in the shoe boxes and some kid gets a good Christmas

But no. This generation of people.. we're just all selfish bastards

Graduation- 28/11/09

I've been feeling really down lately, just things happening, and school, and friends. I needed something to make me feel better. So my friend, Kelsey, brought up Graduation.. obviously that didn't help. But we get to write grad write ups for the yearbook, so to give me an idea of what to write.. she took out her yearbook from last year and read to me what I had wrote.. and I feel like sharing.

I'm going to eventually take up this whole page. It make take a while,...but i'll do it..hmm..red elephant and the shark swam, i punched him and palmed him in the face, he burned and melted in the firey water (this is what i was thinking in becca's room) tonights tasks..hah..oh i think we need that app. (productivity) i am GOING to use this whole page. can we go get some cotton cand-LISTEN TO IT
Oh boy.. haha movies every long weekend
CANDY MAN FINALLY got it..i didn't pay attention -.-
I JUTS SPIT oh, i drooled.
Texting in math,chem,physics
CAN WE GO FOR A WALK GHETTO JUICE, thug juice, want a straw ? are you chewing it ?!
if you wanna be my lova love..lova..lova..love.................LOVAH.!
Mow the lawn, go grocery shopping, row the boat, wash the dishes. do the q-tip. throw it away......
I HAVE to stop now, you're making me help you !! GRAWR
Im using msn emotions and they don't work. FIX YOUR EAR
RWWWR! Do you know what that sound was . annoying ? no a puma !!!
UUUUUNGH ! thats how you spell the sound.
CESAR SALAD CHICKEN WRAP...or how weird you like to say it.
rah rah rah rah! that's what i used to fix my mistake
"Colorado sunshine"...sun rise..... that what i said....oh....oh...nooo!
Bonjour, i can speak french
when i go away, im going to learn how to speak ghetto..in french and go to class..in french..and learn...in french...
Parmesean..Pellow..those are aspelt how you say ..them..
home skillet...buiscut........MUDPIE...
TRACHEOTOMY...hence .. trachea(spelled right)
OUR LIVES CONSISTS OF :: house, salad, bumper stickers, horror films, Ceasar salad wraps, SYTYCD, 3OH!3, ghetto juice walks and camera time.
IMDB it.
the world will come to an end when these people die.
Hugh laurie, tobin bell, and thats all i go right now. OH MY GOD MIA MICHAELS. ! Tyce. shane....uh..kay.. TRAVIS WALL...i like him ^-^
ITS POURING OUT ! ............ STILL !